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For months I have suffered being easily angered at being called "Dramatic". Not that it's bad or anything . . . it's just that I'm not.

I've been known to resort to violence first, and ask questions later. I am the girl known for her spoiled attitude and crazy aura. I bring shy people out of their shells and make their personalities shine. But I can't do that for myself. I try to help others before I help myself. And in this, I've been the more generous girl who gets hurt.


When will it be my turn to win?


I don't mean to cause fights. I don't mean to cause arguments. I mean, when will it be my turn to have a smile on my face without any pain behind it? When will my time to be the girl who I envy come? Why don't I shine as radiantly as her?


Because I hide who I am from the world.


I am spontaneous. I fit in with others because I hide my originality. I've let it show here and there, designing my own hair accessories, converting ear rings into nose studs . . . I am a creator. I am one in a million. I do my own thing with my everything. I've gotten into the habit of tearing my uniform clothing.


But . . . I only stand out physically. With the personality traits I use, I am not me. People like me for what I'm not, and I'm afraid they'll hate me for what I am. I haven't been the girl everybody hates in two years, and I'm not going back.


But the backstabbings are coming back. My reign is ending.


I don't want to be trapped by myself anymore. But what option do I have if I want to be one of everybody else?


I don't. And I won't.

I don't care if he does not like me for who I am. I don't care if she does not like my personality. I will be me, I will let my true colors show. I'll dance like nobody is watching, theoretically speaking.

I will be that nerdy chick who will seriously discuss math problems with you, who compliments your verb or adjective use. I'll be the punky chick who will stand up for herself. There's no hiding now.


So what if my friends are stabbing me in the back? Shows what friends they are. What about those girls who talk about me? I don't care! They obviously have nothing better to do than talk stuff, so I'll let them. Not like it's bothering me.


There's no hiding when you're being you and all of your personality traits are showing. Maybe then I'll find people who like me for who I am, and a boyfriend who appreciates my inner beauty.

There's no shame. No hiding. Nothing.


I'm running free now. What about you?


-adingnya:]

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Homework, studying, homework, and studying! That's what everyone is doing this week. Isn't there an easier way to get it done faster? Of course there is!



If you are cramming over Sciences tests, or doing your Math homework all night there is obviously something wrong with your schedule. Take a break! If you're involved in 10 sports, or extra-curricular activities in one week, good for you! But most of the time it interferes with your homework.



If you cannot quit an activity, find some time in Study Hall or Free Period. In most schools, they have these. It allows students to take time out of their day to do some homework, catch up on some studying and sometimes use the library or the Internet for researching. If you have this in your school, take advantage! I have this is my school and I usually sit down and study. I prefer to do my homework at home, but if your schedule is busy, go ahead and do it. Use this time wisely though, don't fool around with friends! Do what you have to do and resume your day.



Pay more attention in class! The teacher lectures for a reason. You are there to learn so learn all you can. The more you pay attention in class, the better off you are when you're at home doing homework. The more you know, the quicker you'll get the answers and finish. If you are sitting next to a friend, or sitting by someone who distracts you, ask the teacher for a new sit privately. This happened to me once, the teacher was kind enough and understood. She moved my sit and it helped! Sometimes I have candy during Math. Math is hard for me, so eating something I love helps me! If you have a favorite candy, have some. Some schools will not allow this but if you really need it hide it in your backpack like me!



Get a tutor! Tutors are people who help you after school with any subject you need. I have a tutor for Math. Every time my tutor explains a lesson, I understand it more and my grades go up! Ask your school if they have tutors. Prices will depend on how many days you use the tutor, and how many hours you spend with him/her.



Purchase an assignment pad. These will allow you to keep track of every test, report and homework. You could find this at ANY office supply store. You can buy a really fancy one, or any old mini notebook! They really help. My assignment pad is a regular decorated mini notebook. I bring it to every class and home every day.



Studying helps you the most. No test or homework assignment is hard if you study and gather information from your notes or textbook. Sometimes I think the tests I take are super hard, but then I realize I didn't study hard enough and the next test I get it! Take your time, and study hard.



Only YOU could change your grades and now is the time!



Stay smart and more importantly . . . keep reading!


♥♥ CLARISSE ♥♥

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